Wednesday, January 4, 2012

On Not Reading

To be with the one I love and to think of something else: this is how I have my best ideas, how I best invent what is necessary to my work. Likewise for the text: it produces, in me, the best pleasure if it manages to make itself heard indirectly; if, reading it, I am led to look up often, to listen to something else. I am not necessarily captivated by the text of pleasure; it can be an act that is slight, complex, tenuous, almost scatterbrained: a sudden movement of the head like a bird who understands nothing of what we hear, who hears what we do not understand.
Roland Barthes, The Pleasure of the Text

For being an easily distracted person, I've always sought out somewhat distracting environments in which to read. Some of this impulse is nostalgic -- reading to the sound of a football game on TV or clattering dishes, for example, are comforts from childhood -- and sometimes it feels necessary to have the extraneous noise to tune out to give me incentive to narrow my focus.

Last night, though, while reading what is so far a very good book in such an environment, I suddenly sat up straighter with a startled feeling, like I'd just come around a corner in my own brain and caught myself doing something that always makes me feel guilty. People don't often admit to this, but they do it too, right? I realized that for at least a few pages, I hadn't really been reading.

The practice that I'm referring to is different from drifting off while reading, staring at the page thinking other thoughts. I was, actually, moving my eyes from line to line. Probably every sixth sentence entered my brain in a real, resonating way. I turned the pages at my regular pace. I wasn't really listening to anything going on around me. I wasn't thinking about anything else in particular, just occasional thoughts coming and going, like they always are. I was simply reading without reading.

I'll be honest: this happens a lot.

This confession would probably confuse some of the people who think of me as a reader. I've often been told how absorbed I appear by books, how specifically and passionately I speak about them, how much I seem to enjoy reading, and it's true -- there are few things in the world I like more. But, just like sometimes we read to escape, sometimes to learn, sometimes to entertain, I think we must admit that sometimes we read just to be reading, and that this sort of reading is not an exclusive mental activity. There is shame in this, like we're doing it wrong, right? But is this kind of reading less valuable than any other? I enjoyed the experience, I felt satisfied with my progress in my book (which, no, I will not name, lest I recommend it here sometime in the future and, despite my pleas that you understand this phenomenon, you think that I'm a faker and the book must be boring) and put it down with a desire to pick it up again soon. I'm not going to re-read those sentences I missed. I didn't need them. The ones I did need found their way in. Am I alone here? Or is this what reading is, and the part that I've been doing wrong is feeling like I'm always supposed to be doing it better?

Monday, January 2, 2012

Best-selling books of 2011

Here are the ten best-selling books at Green Apple for 2011 (with links to eBooks, just in case you're tying to fill up your new device).
  1. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins (young adult fiction, soon to be a movie). eBook
  2. A Game of Thrones: A Song of Ice and Fire by George Martin (the fantasy series adapted for HBO). eBook
  3. 1Q84 by Haruki Murakami (was it the free beer and tacos or just the pent-up demand for Murakmai's magnum opus?). eBook
  4. A Visit from the Goon Squad by Jennifer Egan (Green Apple was mentioned by name in the advance reading copy, only to be heartlessly edited out, alas). eBook
  5. A Clash of Kings by George Martin (as above). eBook
  6. Infinite City by Rebecca Solnit (we love when an eclectic university press book hits the top of our charts).
  7. Bossypants by Tina Fey (no one had ever heard of her until we started handselling this, right?). eBook
  8. Just Kids by Patty Smith (the Pulitzer didn't hurt). eBook
  9. A Storm of Swords by George Martin (yep, another one). eBook
  10. A Feast for Crows by George Martin (and another). eBook
Since George Martin nabbed four spots, let's list one more, eh?

11. Go the Fuck to Sleep by Adam Mansbach (proving that even if you can read a PDF free online, you still want the book. Or that parents today are horrible monsters).

No predictions for 2012, except maybe that this great book, which I'm currently devouring, will be much talked about. Now back to the stack of forthcoming books. . . .